so its been years in the making for me… a part of my life finally complete.. a part that is a HUGE part of me.. its my inspiration, my ambition, my guide.. its the purest form for me.

A part of my musical checklist is complete.

1. hope and pray for the police to get back together to tour

2. see them on tour (twice)

3. get the DVD live box set and live CD.

yeah it may sound ridiculous to you…how is this THAT important? you may say.. lets see if i can explain a bit of it.

I listen to all kinds of music. from left to right. i embrace it all and like somethings more then others. I try to find things i like in all music.. keep my mind open, and learn.  I have studied music for a really long time. probably more particular in studying in than most.  I can talk about the weirdest parts of music, stuff people dont think about. sometimes its really deep, sometimes its on the surface. I break down songs in my head, trying to figure out why this part is like this, or why did he sing it that way.. THEN i break down the recording style of it (i am a recording engineer after all).. trying to understand reverbs, compression, tones.. etc.  its pretty complex, not that fun to talk about, probably not that interesting to you, and i dont really give a fuck if you think im crazy.

i am.

I have every track recorded by The Police. I have studied almost every one of their songs. I have cried to their songs, i have laughed, got headaches, mesmerized, bewildered, saddened, relieved…you name it. every emotion. (i know my closest friends are saying im SOOO GAY right now…)

but this shit means alot to me.. its my foundation for music. its what i qualify as all around A+ music. from band mates, to vocals, to lyrics, writing, playing, recording.. you name it.  its one of the only bands where i feel like im in the studio with them while they are recording.. its not perfect, its not totally clean.. its real. its connecting. its full circle. 3D. emotional.

Driven to Tears is probably one of the most perfect songs of all time. The chorus is unreal. the way Copeland plays the drums during it hits me everytime. and I am getting to watch them play this on my tv right now. its amazing. its perfect.

anyway..

There isnt anything else that makes me feel like this makes me feel. At both concerts, i was so happy.. Happiest I have every been i think.  Its like it showed me my purpose in life. showed me to just let go and be myself.

Only a few people really understand my appreciation for this. I was given a chance to explain to them, and i hope they understand this is really a HUGE part of me, and i cherish it.  its deep.  and i wanna thank them for listening to me and understanding.

so here i am. years later, and the hope is complete. its so fucking awesome. fuck yeah.

thanks for listening.. thanks for saying am a fucking nut. thanks for making fun of me.

wrapped around my finger. damn…